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The Seduction of Despair, the Persistence of Possibility

January 9, 2026 – by Rick MacPherson

Some mornings despair arrives before coffee.

Not dramatically, not like a crashing wave or a siren, but quietly, like a fog: soft at first, then everywhere. It shows up on my phone, in headlines, on social media: policies rolled back. Protections stripped. Science defunded. Expertise ridiculed. Species disappearing. A political climate that feels more handheld flamethrower than democratic process. And beneath all of that, the quiet exhaustion of living through cascading crises without a pause button.

It’s especially loud now, at the turn of the year, a time when we’re told to make plans, set goals, and imagine better futures. But imagining can feel dangerous when the world feels fragile. The idea of resolve can seem almost laughable.

Despair is seductive because it offers a strangely rational refuge: If everything is collapsing, then nothing is required of you anymore. And there’s relief — brief, dangerous — in imagining the story is already over.

But despair isn’t neutral. It doesn’t just describe reality. It shapes it. Despair hands momentum to the forces counting on our fatigue. To the industries that benefit when we withdraw. To leaders who flourish when we believe we are powerless. It masquerades as honesty. Underneath it is permission — not to feel, but to quit.

Why We Stay in the Work

There have been days — fieldwork days, policy days, loss-of-another-species days — when I thought: Maybe the wild world will outlive us. Maybe the most we can do is bear witness to the ending. But then I think of future generations forced to inherit a planet stripped of its complexity and wildness, and bearing witness feels too much like quiet betrayal.

And then something interrupts. A headline — quiet, almost buried — about wolves returning or a coastal ecosystem recovering faster than expected. A student’s email saying they never realized nature was part of their story too, even from a city block surrounded by concrete. A grainy livestream of coral spawning — imperfect, but undeniable evidence that life is still trying. A community cleanup that began with six hesitant strangers and somehow became a recurring ritual people now protect on their calendars. A message from someone I’ll never meet saying they felt less alone because I didn’t give up.

And then, perhaps most powerful, I sit in a folding chair at a community meeting. The room isn’t glamorous. There’s no dramatic soundtrack. People are tired. Some are angry. Some are afraid. No one knows everything. But they showed up anyway. And in that small, imperfect room, I remember: Despair isolates. Community builds momentum.

We Are Not at the End — We Are at the Fork

This is a threshold moment. The kind future generations will study — not because we were certain, but because the uncertainty cornered us into choosing who we were willing to be.

History is full of inflection points when the future could have veered toward collapse or reinvention. And in those moments, there were always people who refused to leave the page blank: people who showed up tired. People who acted without guarantees. People who believed — not because the outcome was certain, but because living without trying felt unbearable.

That’s us now. Not the first generation to fight for wildlife, rivers, forests, or ocean. Not the last. But the generation with the least time to hesitate.

So what do we do when despair feels stronger than resolve? We don’t banish it. We don’t pretend we’re immune. We learn to feel it — and then move anyway.

Here’s how we keep going — not perfectly, but sustainably.

1. Shrink the Horizon.

Not everything needs to be solved at planetary scale. When the global feels unbearable, go local. This isn’t evasion, it’s strategic retreat. When we successfully restore one stream, one prairie, one forest patch, one shoreline, we break the logic of despair that says our efforts are futile. We create our own momentum. Small work is not small if it moves the world forward.

2. Build Belonging, Not Just Awareness.

Loneliness is one of despair’s most reliable accomplices. Hope doesn’t thrive alone. Find your people — the conservationists, scientists, artists, kids, elders, divers, farmers, fishers, hikers, hunters, dreamers, pragmatists — anyone who still believes a living planet is worth fighting for.

Community transforms despair from a boulder into a load shared. Show up to talks. Host a nature walk. Make space for questions, grief, curiosity, laughter, failure, and trying again. Movements don’t survive because they are correct. They survive because they are connected.

3. Let Awe Recalibrate You.

Get on your belly at the edge of a tidepool and watch barnacles open, each one waiting for the right moment to feed as the tide breathes in. Watch ants rebuild a colony after rain. Follow animal tracks in the snow. Stand beside a river and notice its pull. Watch a storm build over a lake and feel how water holds mood and memory. Plant native grasses and discover how soil — quiet, unglamorous soil — becomes an ecosystem. Grab a map and trace the flight paths of migrating birds overhead. Watch a livestream of a loud, chaotic romp of giant river otters in the Amazon and feel how wildness doesn’t apologize for taking up space.

Awe doesn’t erase the grief, but it reminds us why grief exists in the first place: because we love something worth protecting.

4. Act Anyway.

Even when discouraged. Even when unsure. Even when afraid. Action is not the opposite of despair — it is the antidote that makes despair bearable.

Write. Vote. Volunteer. Donate. Protest. Teach. Repair. Create. Speak up in rooms where silence is easy. Hope grows where footsteps repeat.

5. Rest. Seriously.

Burnout doesn’t make you a martyr. It makes you absent. Rest isn’t quitting; it’s recharging the part of you that refuses to give up.

Even ecosystems rest: Seasons shift, fires reset forests, tides withdraw, storms spend themselves. Your rest is part of the rhythm, not a deviation from it. Rest doesn’t pause the movement. It preserves the mover.

The Persistence of Possibility

Here’s a truth: Despair is honest.

Hope is honest, too. The difference is that hope participates. Hope has calluses. Hope stumbles and keeps going. Hope is the quiet refusal to surrender the future. The living world is not gone. And neither are we. This story isn’t finished. We are still writing it… species by species, action by action, community by community.

So as we step into 2026, maybe the resolution isn’t flashy or tidy. Maybe it’s this: Show up. For the wild. For each other. For the future. Some days that will mean attending hearings. Some days that will mean protecting your rest. Some days it will simply mean refusing to say “It’s too late” even when despair feels convincing.

Hope isn’t something we wait for. It’s a discipline we practice.

And as we cross into this new year — with uncertainty in one hand and possibility in the other — we make a quiet, stubborn promise: We will not hand the living world over to despair. Not this year. Not while we are here. Not while there’s still something left to protect.

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Snorks 2!

Four more days of recent snorkeling on Rakino Island.. Other critters seen but not photographed, (or not photographed well!) an eagle ray, and a leatherjacket. I’m determined to get a better image of the hiwihiwi next time.

You won’t see much in the way of pictures of snapper here, not because there aren’t juvenile snapper in the rocky reef zone, but because they aren’t an indicator of reef health. We’re more interested in the diversity of other species, and I’m especially interested in the uncharismatic little guys; the chiton, limpets, and dorids. What we’ve seen over the last few weeks of snorkeling is that the reef area isn’t too horrible; the steady decline of the Hauraki Gulf has been relentlessly documented for a long time and now maybe it’s time to start to try and tell a more positive story.

The addition of the High Protection Area at the Noises potentially marks a turning point for the eastern Rakino reef and coastal areas. The worst case scenario would be to see a line of recreational fishers sitting in their boats just off the edge of the HPA between Rakino and The Noises.

I’m hopeful that we’ll see even more diversity in the next few years instead, and maybe one day an extension of the HPA over to the Rakino coastline. Regardless, we’ll continue to document the changes.

Octopus pretending to be a speckled rock.
Tentacular extension.
Heading for the seaweed.
Red Moki.
Parore and red moki crossing paths.
Squid eggs!
A clutch of decent sized turban shells.
Walking Seahares in the kelp
Hiwihiwi (kelp fish) fleeing my rude intrusion.
Goat fish. Only one charming yellow whisker on display.
Yet more beautiful white striped sea anemones.
Silver sweep.
Close-up of another black dorid nudibranch! One of three hanging out together..
Parore in the seascape.

Snorks!

Images of some recent snorkeling in the rocky reefs of Rakino. Many, many thanks to the Waiheke Local Board for funding the underwater camera so we can continue to document the flora and fauna of underwater Rakino.

Edge of a huge bait ball
A confusion of mackerel? and anchovy.
Close up inside bait ball.
Wall of white-striped sea anemone.
Beautiful sea anemones.
Close-up of a white-striped sea anemone.
Triple fin feasting on kina.
Nudibranch egg ribbon with some kind of warty sea slug photo-bombing.
Two handsome black dorids.
White-fronted terns feasting on a boil-up.
Egg sacs, (I think!) Update, an invasive sea squirt, regretfully. 🙁
Anemone and chiton on a lolly pink rock.
A young snap.
Parore and friends, coming at ya..
Simon’s sea cucumber friends.
A curious reef squid. One of 5, but alas my camera setting was set to close-up!
Close up of egg ribbon from a nudibranch.
EEEEEK! Polychaete worm.
Triple-fin close-up.
Aforementioned invasive sea squirts, anemones, and chitons.
A solitary black dorid.
A chiton selection. The large one is a violet chiton.
Mediterranean fan worm. A marine pest.
Glass shrimp and triple fin.
Hermit crab and white-striped anemone.

King’s Birthday Weekend 2025

We set off to Rakino with a number of tasks to undertake; a rubbish audit, water testing with Bert, and penguin sign construction. We ended up achieving the first two tasks, making some progress on signage, and taking on a few extra jobs besides. All to the good; a roaring northerly extended our stay by a couple of days and we didn’t mind at all.

You can read about the rubbish audit here https://www.rakino.org.nz/2025/06/08/rakino-waste-audit/ and I’m confident Bert will report on the stream and pond testing in due course.
The penguin signs are a work in progress, so hopefully Matariki long weekend will see them installed, FINALLY.

The coolest thing that happened to me was sighting a live little blue penguin for the first time ever on Rakino. Usually I just document dead kororā, so I was really happy to finally see a young’un, hunkered down under a rock ledge in the vicinity of Maori Garden Bay. There are plentiful penguin tracks around the coast currently, with many double tracks heading out into the tide, indicating parents off fishing for the day. Please, dog owners, ensure your dogs are within sight and under control at all times.

Kororā tucked under a rock ledge.

I also got to photograph a kākā at John and Carolyn MacKenzies. Accounts over the weekend are of up to five of them skraarking around overhead, which is pretty exciting for a kākāphile like myself.

A young female kākā with an admiring audience of tūī, and a solitary bellbird.

A couple of weekend downers; the moth plant infestation has reached epic almost out of control proportions, and the pods are beginning to split. Land owners with moth plant are going to be removing seedlings for years to come, as will their neighbours. Here are the rules for moth plant on Rakino and Waiheke.. https://www.tiakitamakimakaurau.nz/protect-and-restore-our-environment/pests-in-auckland/pest-search/Araser

Granddaddy vine which we collected a black sack of pods from.

The second bummer was the burgeoning bloom of clay sediment out into Maori Garden Bay which exacerbated as the rain intensified. This was particularly heartbreaking for me, as it is in the same area as our little blue penguin sighting, and also the numerous penguin tracks we had seen the previous day. It’s unacceptable to cause this level of environmental damage on Rakino, and should have been anticipated and mitigated.

Sediment in the stream prior to the bloom out into the bay.

Generally an excellent week spent hanging out though, some tasty pizza dinners cooked by Kate as she refines her offerings in anticipation of the Bay Belle floating pizzeria, https://www.instagram.com/baybellenz/
and many sociable evenings spent with all our island friends. I can’t tell a lie though; the rubbish audit was way too much fun.




Flora and Vegetation of Rākino Island Group, Inner Hauraki Gulf.

Part 1: Islets and Reef Stacks

Survey data generously provided by Ewen K. Cameron & Shelley Heiss-Dunlop.

https://www.rakino.org.nz/rakino_botanical_survey.pdf

Published by Auckland Botanical Society, December 2023, vol. 78 (2) pp. 113-139

Part 1b: West islet group of five islets/stacks

https://www.rakino.org.nz/wp-content/uploads/2024/01/ABSJ-791-June-2024-p43-56-1.pdf

Published by Auckland Botanical Society, June 2024, Vol. 79 (1) pp. 43-56.